This is my escape...
It usually turns into one of 'Those' nights, where you just sit and wonder about EVERYTHING that ever happened. The good and the bad. I have flash backs about the people that mean so much to me...I just sit here wondering about the things they've ever said and done. It feels so good, and hurts so bad all at once.
Wish i could go back, and tell myself what i know now. But sometimes you just have to move on and put that chapter of your life in the past. Don't close the book, just turn the page.
"It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. I was so preposterously serious in those days…Lightly, lightly—it’s the best advice ever given me. So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly, my darling."
Aldous Huxley, Words I Needed To Tell Myself (via acupofkeen)
"I won’t beg someone to love me. I learned long ago that there is no use in hopeless pleas of trying to make someone stay. I am too good to chase someone who does not know my worth and I am too wild to keep waiting for someone who doesn’t acknowledge my value. I want to be loved unconditionally. I shouldn’t have to fight so hard for it. I do not have the time to prove to someone that I am worth it. I shouldn’t have to prove any of that; I am worth more than that."